Fearful-Avoidant and Stonewalling

Conflict with fearful-avoidant attachment is like having two people inside you fighting for control. One wants to fix things immediately. The other wants to run. Stonewalling activates both systems at once, leaving you frozen, overwhelmed, or cycling between rage and withdrawal in the same conversation.

Why This Triggers Fearful-Avoidant Attachment

At its core, stonewalling activates your fear of both abandonment and engulfment simultaneously. Your attachment system — dysregulated — swinging between hyperactivation and deactivation by design — reads this situation as a threat to your safety that has never felt available. The result is overwhelm, confusion about your own feelings, and a desperate urge to flee or freeze. What makes this particularly challenging is that your response is automatic: before your rational mind can assess the situation, your body has already decided this is an emergency. Understanding this neurological reality is the first step toward choosing a different response.

What You Might Be Feeling

• Flooding — too many emotions hitting at once to process any of them
• Switching between wanting to fix it and wanting to burn it all down
• Dissociation or going 'blank' mid-argument
• Saying things you don't mean just to end the unbearable tension
• Shame spiralling after the conflict about how you behaved
• Physical overwhelm — shaking, crying, or shutting down completely

What To Do

1. Identify whether you're currently in an anxious or avoidant state. The strategy differs for each.
2. Ground your body first — your nervous system needs to settle before your mind can think clearly.
3. Journal the contradictions without trying to resolve them. 'I want closeness AND I want to run' — both can be true.
4. Avoid making major relationship decisions during emotional extremes. Wait for the middle ground.
5. Build a support network beyond your partner. Fearful-avoidants often put all their emotional eggs in one basket.
6. Seek trauma-informed therapy. Fearful-avoidant attachment responds best to modalities that work with the body, not just the mind.

When This Is Part of a Bigger Pattern

The push-pull you experience around stonewalling isn't random — it follows a predictable cycle, even if it doesn't feel that way from the inside. When closeness exceeds your window of tolerance, you deactivate. When distance exceeds it, you pursue. Mapping this cycle in a journal can help you see the pattern and, eventually, widen that window. Trauma-informed therapy — EMDR, somatic experiencing, or IFS — is particularly effective for this work.